Thursday, April 10, 2014

Exhausted & big decisions

It has been awhile since I last posted, not that much has happened.  I am tired and when I say tired, like weak in the knees tired!  Everyone around me tells me how I look tired!  I am not sure what it is, but I don't think it is anything that a quick little beach trip can't cure.

I've had yet another failed IUI cycle.  I wasn't that surprised, by the time the IUI actually took place last month, the sample was probably no longer viable.  I should have saved my $250 and just waited until the next month.  I should have another IUI this week, but we'll be out of town so it can't happen.  I find myself at peace with this, maybe the stress of each IUI, coordinating schedules and taking off of work doesn't help.

I need to make a big decision about my job.  I have been presented with an offer that is very appealing but I am not sure I can make the move.  I am comfortable where I am and I know the people I work with and for the most part I love them.  I have troubles with discipline, but maybe I need to just give it up.  I'm not really sure.  I am praying for a clear sign or a any sign for that matter.  Fingers crossed it comes through.

I really hope that next week, I'll ovulate and things will work out naturally.  I won't get my hopes up all that much, but maybe.